Tuesday, 3 November 2015

A Letter to my Family and Friends

To my wonderful family and friends and those who I have yet to meet...
 I have not written for a while, I have lots of thoughts in my head that I need to write down but I do not know where to start! 

There are so many things about each one of you that I am eternally grateful for.  Some of you understand me really well, and have lots of faith in me (which I do not have much of lol) when I struggle to believe in myself.  

Perhaps, without realising it my friends and family are the ones who heal me and help fix all my broken pieces bit by bit.  
My wife is the one who gets me through the tough stuff, she has complete faith in and me is my rock.  

I was left reeling by recent events and I am aware that I have spent years, probably the majority of my life wrestling with feelings of guilt and inadequacy, feeling helplessly trapped inside my destructive thoughts of negativity, anxiety and dare I say it ... depression.  

But you, my wife, children, family and friends have given me the wings I have needed to fly and I am beginning to recognise that I have these wings!  I am slowly becoming accustomed to them and finding the confidence within myself to use them.  

Many of you, without any judgement, have listened to me talk for hours through text messages, whats app, Facebook and even through a cuppa!  My wife has wiped my tears, soothed my fears, and helped me begin to understand that what was so very wrong with me perception of myself stemmed from the past.  

I admit my self esteem is in tattered at times, but through many of you and my wife, words of encouragement have helped me to see some of the truth and love that I should feel for myself.  I am getting there and I will have set backs but its on-wards and upwards...  

I know I have an exciting journey ahead of me with my wife, children and you guys!  How lucky am I to get to share that with you.  

Speak soon, F x