I was thinking about what has happened in the last month or so ... For your info I am sitting in my friends amazing salon having my Christmas hair colour and cut.
In November I was hurt. I won't go into the details. But I'm still suffering from it even now. If you said to me, "What did you do in November?" My answer would be... November??? Has it come and gone? How did that happen?!
Unfortunately I slept through most of the month due to the cocktail of drugs I was prescribed from my Doctor. It's actually a horrible feeling knowing I won't get that time back.
It's gone.
Time to move on.
I'm sat here feeling a bit "spaced out" and it's an odd feeling. I knew it wasn't the normal me when I was at the Densist earlier today and I didn't even flinch when I was having my teeth prodded at (all good nothing needs to be done) and I just stared at the light and felt myself being transfixed by it as if it was only me and the light.
Have any of you ever felt like that (not through recreational drugs I mean! Lol) .... Just for the record!
I really hope that December isn't like that for me. As I want to feel I have done something. Although I can't do a lot at present. Which is frustrating in itself. I even need help taking off and putting on my clothes. Not good eh?
I have tried to stay upbeat and positive but sometimes it just gets a bit toooooooo much. I just want to collapse in a comforting heap (preferably with feather pillows, duvets, blankets and candles surrounding me. Oh fairy lights too with cake and tea .... Nah? Best keep going I guess!!!
I think I'm gonna continue taking my cocktail of tablets. Ask for a cuddle from my other half and beautiful girls. That'll keep me going.
For the time being.......
Any suggestions? For pick me ups and motivational comments are very very welcome!
Speak soon, love F X
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